Tired of living in a world where every decision feels like the wrong one.
Where every thing I think or feel, good or bad, is not how I should feel, or feels incriminating. Where waking up in the morning is a bad choice, and every interaction only brings negative emotion.
Tired of living with haunting memories, anxiety, and constant regret over small interactions that happened a lifetime ago, and fearing the opinions of people who have long since forgotten me.
Choosing to express myself is wrong, choosing to not is wrong, choosing to speak my mind is wrong, choosing to speak is wrong, voicing opinions is wrong, worrying is wrong, caring about myself is wrong, caring about others is wrong, not caring is wrong.
I don’t even know what I’ve done, but in my eyes, I’ll always be a bad person.
Even expressing these feelings feels wrong and incriminating. The urge to erase myself grows stronger everyday.
